Recitation and Inspiration

Seriously, why do we need recitation if we really do listen attentively and participate with the activities that the teacher may give? (Or this really matters to me because I am an introvert?) Does it really mean that you have understood the lesson when you have recited? Aigoo... I really hate it when it comes to recitations and activities that may require reporting your results verbally. I survived the past years by slightly reciting but why does this semester really requires us to recite even though we can get a gist of the lesson being discussed for the day. But still I ended up reciting for our law and tax subjects even though it may not be that perfect at least I've quite answered almost all of the questions being thrown to me for law. I think it is an achievement for me and symbolizes that I can improve myself more in that aspect. Two of the factors that really matters to me when reciting were the reaction of my classmates and of course if I have answered the question of my teacher. I think that I should further improve my confidence so that I wouldn't mind what others may say about what I may say when reciting. I should have conviction when reciting so that I would be able to convince them that I am serious with what is thought and opinion about the topic.

So much for the recits thingy, let's head to an interesting part of my life; having an inspiration. For me, I think having an inspiration at school might help you to improve yourself more to impress that specific person you have in mind. But I think if you try to change every certain thing about you just to get his attention then I think that would mean that you are changing for the worse not for the better for yourself. Knowing them little by little but you don't have the courage to speak to him personally because you don't know whether they will react the way you like or the other way around. But there's this big question in my mind that whenever I find someone to be my inspiration or my so-called crush I always get the chance to meet them always around the school. It's just a really big mystery to me that I always get to meet them and then I am able to know their name just by knowing the name of their friend. But lately, there's this one Korean whom I always get to meet around the corridor, stairs, classroom and other places in school that I didn't have a clue to what his name was. Then one day my other classmates met him in the classroom from the other building and they asked him many questions but unfortunately they forgot his name (sad story :(() But I don't lose hope on knowing his name and be friends with him and his other friends. I know that someday we will get a chance to be friends.